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Count It All Joy

Knowing that the trial of your faith bringeth forth patience

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March 2016

Another Day, Another Joy, Another Trial…

The last few days have been hard for me. I was to have my 6 month check up with my oncologist on Wednesday, but had to put it off another week due to transportation issues and the fact that my doctor is an hour away. It’s these times when I must wait and have time to think about things. If you’ve never been given that diagnosis of Cancer, then you probably won’t understand these feelings, fears, and forebodings that come along with it. Every few months you go to see a doctor and hope and pray that you will get a clean bill of health. It’s certainly something to live under the cloud of that fear.

I know I have so many things for which to be grateful, and I am grateful. I’m grateful that I was able to spend the Holidays with my family, I got to have another Easter picture with my family, I got to see my girls turn 2, I’m getting to see Spring awaken again and I can still feel the sunshine on my skin. There are many who have walked this solemn road before and came through it with joy and lived many, many more years.

I was recently asked if the doctors think that it will come back, and I had to answer honestly “Well, I was told that since I had it, I will likely develop another spot in my lifetime.” So, I guess that’s why I live with this feeling of fear and foreboding. I also know that God is watching over me and knows every twist and turn of this dreaded disease, and he allowed it for a reason. My prayer is that God will help someone else through it and draw them to himself.

This is my family on Easter this year. I loved the way we all ended up coordinating. Hubby bought the girls dresses, his tie and my scarf and we just all fit together. 🙂 I love it.

Cherry Blossoms

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Another Surgery

This past week I had another minor surgery to remove the rest of a spot. This was just an outpatient surgery, with local anesthetic, I was really nervous about it. I was afraid that I wouldn’t get numb enough and I would feel things, well, I was about right. They did have trouble getting the area numb and I felt when the surgeon started to sew me up, but it wasn’t too awful.

The results of this spot just came back and they were negative for any cancer. Thank the Lord!! He certainly has taken care of me. I get nervous every time I go back to see the doctor because you just never know what they will say. I have another check up at the end of March, then again in June and August. I see either my cancer surgeon or the dermatologist every 3 months.

Cancer Surgery.jpgI know that this blog has been about my cancer journey, and I would like to keep it about that. I just don’t update here that often anymore since there really hasn’t been much to report. Which I’m grateful for, because that means I’m doing ok. However, I recently had some other health issues, ended up to be the Calcium Crystals in my ears were out of whack, man that can really mess you up and make you pretty sick. I could hardly walk without hanging onto stuff. Ended up going to the ER by squad because I had no idea what was going on. Boy did that doc get it wrong. He said I had some inner ear infection/virus and it wasn’t that at all.

I have also been having trouble with my heart. It’s been racing for no reason, so I’m not on medicine to lower my heart rate and bloodpressure. It makes me feel very weak and shakey, almost like I’m having a low blood sugar attack. Hopefully that will straighten out soon.

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